PERSONAL FAILURES
My biggest personal failure has to be with my wife. She is a great person but I really lose patience with her. I can endure clients and strangers complete absurdity as if I am in a moron marathon, but with my wife I short fuse her. I mean that really stinks of me. It should be the opposite really. Maybe with my wife there are more items of interference. Things like, hey I wanted to have sex last night but I didn’t get to have sex last night. I never have to ask a client or wonder why my desires did not get fulfilled. I tend to forget that my wife is a real person separate from my desires. That sounds horrible doesn’t it? I am conclusively selfish and self-centered. My hope is that I am not cruel or indifferent but she is my wife and I forget to acknowledge her apart from my hopes desires and dreams in my life. Sometimes I will sit on the couch with her and I forget the 20 years of history we have together. In those brief clear moments I realize that she is an independent, smart, vibrant, funny, caring and loving person. Then I get scared and realize that I had nothing to do with her creation, I am just the beneficiary of her. Maybe I should stop being such as jerk. The problem is I really wanted to have sex last night. Well there is always tomorrow night.AH
Mike on 02 Apr 2008 at 12:09 pm #
I have been married now for 6 months. I know its anywhere near the amount of time as some people, but i can definatley relate to your experience.. In my opinion, its easy to show the people you love the most your true self.. Not saying that everyone puts on a front around other people, but it makes a difference when you are surrounded by people you are closer to. Its easy to lash at people like your wife or girlfriend, especially when sex may or maynot be involved.. The “V” is very very powerful, and women know that, maybe in some cases its the only form of control they have left? The problem may not be you being a jerk, but the women expressing their control with the power between their legs